Friday 23 September 2011

Keep On Keeping On

Make world small- but still big enough to turn around in- not cat swinging or anything so strenuous and wrong, but certainly must be large enough to accomodate falling forwards or backwards or to the side- oh, and the other side- oh, and stumbles are common! Lately on the stairs dying wasps, but i pick them up -careful like- with piece of paper and, zip, off they go out of the window. Oh- dying but still flying. Some i find too late and they have met death on the drying wire of carpet, not out in the fresh. Learning to use crutches- me, me- not the wasps- you silly- this is a demonstration of my lack of co-ordination, the crutches, ooh it hurts, ooh it does- co-ordination was one of my things- PING, GOT IT!- lately, don't got it. See, typing has been the small give-away from early on, but... crutches show me on a bigger scale.....   how....much......                         longer........                                        
the....thoughts....   take..........to.......reach........the........muscles.......and........then......it ................takes........a......fair........while.............to........get........back........to......the.......brain.......and...... let......the......brain...........kn........ow.......th.......ey...........ar.....e....do....ing...........wh....a.......t........they... should.......................be......................................d........o........i......n............g.........
Yes, it is very tiring.
All in all- all in all- all in all- i am not at war, i am not witnessing great horror- i am in one piece- i am loved- i am supported- i'm good luck- good luck- i'm lucky, lucky, lucky- i am simply engaged in struggle, and- if i relax- drop my shoulders- breathe deeply- it's........not.......so.......bad.......at............all.







A J Casper 2011

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